OHMAI...

Huohohoho ich bin Fegelein xDDDD

I'm being followed o/////o

This is so embarrassing o/////o Now I won't feel comfortable babbling to myself anymore ./////.

Jia Lu seems like a great artist. I'm so glad she replied to my comment on her profile xD

"There is a smaller group of monkey-makers who take special pleasure in making pictures of things. I'm one of those, and I suspect you are too. We're the ones who scrawled on walls with crayons, doodled in textbooks, couldn't learn a formula without a diagram, and who never seemed to have enough pencils or paper close at hand. While other kids scribbled poems in notebooks, or ran faster than the wind, or banged on a piano, we started drawing funny pictures of our friends, or fell in love with comic books, or tried to copy illustrations from the books we read. We were arrested by the beauty of a painting so real you wanted to touch it, or so moving you couldn't look away. And at some stage we decided we wanted to create that magic ourselves.
...The drawings and paintings aren't important, the tools aren't important, the exhibitions and reviews aren't important. The burning desire to share the world you have created within; to explore and faithfully document that magical place inside your mind; to reflect, to see inwardly; to love yourself and nourish the creative power you were born with: that is what separates the artists from the other monkeys."
(Taken from Jia Lu's journal)

I think all artists will decorate Heaven together when they get there, haha xD Sounds silly, but that's something I'm hoping to see =]

Prospering Vanity = Rotten Soul

For vanity belongs to the world but the soul belongs to the Lord.

All praises are vain when they're not about the Lord.

How much longer, ignorant humans, are you planning to chase after the wind?

You do not have to be extraordinary to be loved.

I was placed among the lowly for a reason.

Money

I'm hating it.

Dust

I'm nothing in this world.

But I'm something in God's eyes.

It's never too late to try.

A little surprise

I never noticed I've always had this kind of Protestant mindset since I was a kid although I was raised Catholic D8 (Of course I didn't know any Protestants and what they believed back then).

I've always prayed to Jesus since I was taught The Lord's Prayer at the age of 4. Every time I prayed, I prayed to Him alone. To me He's always been the only One that I should really pray to, while my mom and aunts also stressed on praying to Mary. Occasionally I'd pray the rosary, but it was because the nuns or my mom told me to do so. Most of the time I'd forget if I wasn't reminded (sometimes I even felt guilty about that xD). Also, I didn't care much about praying to (and touching) the statues like my mom and other people did. Even when I tried praying to them, it felt fake. No, like, seriously, I didn't receive any kind of divine feelings from those statues. But it's different with the cross. I could always sense an undescribable power coming from it even though my faith was not so strong.

Oh well, I guess I'm somewhat, erm, non-denominational right now (my mom'd probably tell me there's no such thing lol xD). I keep and respect certain beliefs and traditions of both Catholicism and Protestantism, believing that they will help strengthen my relationship with God. I'm willing to go to either of these branches' church as long as I could worship there. Sometimes I wonder if it's wrong to be "half-hearted" like that, but then I think...

God will not send me to Hell for not being a member of any specific denomination and not keeping all of their traditions, right? I believe what He really wants is the Unity of the churches, not the Division of denominations. He needs our hearts, not the traditions. In my opinion, traditions and rules were originally set up by God to keep our focus on Him and to guard our hearts against the devil, but eventually humans invented and added their own rules to the doctrines of their denominations, assuming that those are God-inspired and holy. But even so, I can't really tell what's of God and what's of man every now and then. I don't know that much about the Bible, sadly.

I wish I could go to Bible study every day... I seem to absorb more of God's Word when I'm among other believers O__O Unfortunately I slack off when I'm by myself xD

One layer, no reference

I feel quite troublesome inside today... It's annoying, I don't want to think about it.

Occasionally, I wish I had a heart of stone.

It won't bleed.

And vanity is evil. It's our enemy, but we worship it.

Sunday night

A part of me is immortal. I fear not the death of my physical body.

I was given to give.

Sometimes it's our selfishness that keep people from entering Heaven. There ARE folks that are willing accept the Truth. They just need to be informed by somebody. Why can't that somebody be me and you?

Ciel

Woah, I'm stuck

February is almost over. I hope I'm improving.

Ash Wednesday

We are from dust and to dust we return.

But thanks to God's mercy and grace, that is not the end. As long as our hearts can utter the words of sincere repentance, we will one day rise up from those ashes. We are phoenixes without wings.

Death is the beginning of immortality.

Mirai e...

I got a call early this morning from my family who was celebrating their first day of Chinese New Year back home. They made me felt like I was there even though we're physically miles apart. I'm so blessed to have an average but loving family in which money is not the first priority xD Who says I need a mate to enjoy Valentine's Day? What I experienced was much sweeter than chocolate itself. Thank You God <3

My brother informed me about his wedding towards the end of this year, and told me *in a quite forceful way* that I'd have to take care of his children in the future (he was referring to their education). That was like a wake up call to me because I totally forgot I'd have to be a responsible adult one day xD I felt asleep in my childhood it seems.

For a moment... Thinking of the future got me excited. Would be awesome if I could really take care of someone other than myself *O* There's no telling thou... Art is quite a competitive industry. I'm not even sure if I could ever make any living out of it oTL I'm not talented enough to satisfy this world's endless expectation 8(

But I'm sure... God will take care of me.

An Old Fiend

I wish I could come up with such amazing ideas...

Although you're a demon, Sebastian, I enjoy drawing you. A lot.

I feel like walking on Ice

Oh dear I don't fancy this kind of weather at all.